This title is probably wrong and it should be a question – how do you recover from a terrible run? I am deep into marathon training and everything is going wrong. On Friday I had a day off from work and wanted to go for a 14 mile run so duly I put on my leggings and knee supports and sports bra and trainers and headed out. At barely 6 miles I had to admit defeat. And it’s not that at 6 miles I decided to stop running, oh no, from about 1 km I kept stopping and starting and it was the strange and scary.
I haven’t had a run like this in…well I can’t think of the last time I had such a bad run. In fact I can’t think of a period of time when the bad runs start outweighing the good. I have no idea if it is as simple as the bad runs are the long run and the good runs are the short ones – of course I hope it is but I think it is the marathon pressure I have piled on myself which is crushing me.
I was so determined before training for Paris2016 that I would enjoy the run and the whole experience. Then my knee died and it hasn’t fully recovered but the days are passing and there isn’t much training happening. When I run my knee hurts (less but it still hurts) and hip twinges (I think the hip hurts because my running style has changed because of my knee) and all I can think about is the amount of pain I will be in Paris.
I have no ides how much of this is in my brain, but it being in there doesn’t make it less real. It’s annoying and scary and I have no idea how to handle it. It makes me never want to run a marathon again because I would like a body that can run and not one that is so broken that by the time I am 30 I have to give up running for good.
I am going to try going for a longer run again soon. Let’s see if it’s any better.