I haven’t run properly and without pain in about three weeks. So this week I did one 5km on Monday and that’s it. I think I am lucky that this week is a very heavy one for me work wise because my panic would be off the scales if I had every evening free to think about how much I am NOT running.
The marathon is in 15 days. I don’t think I am going to run more than 5km in those 15 days and I think the 5km runs will be minimal and slow. Stretching and foamrollering are my friends because that’s all I can do. My knees both seem to have developed different issues and I am trying as hard as possible to sort them out but who knows what will happen between now and April?
I definitely still want to do the marathon – whether that means walking it all or not, I don’t mind. Well, that’s a lie, I do mind: I want to run it and I want to be fast but I want to be able to walk without a limp the next day far more. So I have made my choice, I am going to relax and rest from now until April, do other workouts to keep my fitness levels up and that’s it.
It’s strange knowing that running isn’t everything any more – I have been thinking about this marathon for ages and ages. Now I have had to change my mentality and think of it as something to finish strong and not broken rather than something to finish in a certain time. There are times when I rail against the world and the running gods for giving me knees which can’t take the training or the mileage and there are other times when I feel absolutely calm and accepting of the facts. When I’m having a tantrum I have to remember that my body is pretty epic and sometimes it just needs a break. This injury is its way of telling me it needs a break but when I am recovered I plan to come back stronger than before (though not do any marathon training again for a long time, or ever!)
Also next week, the week before the marathon I have decided to take off work and go on holiday. The plan was to do some training on the beaches of Dubai and get used to the heat but now I am not going to. I am going to eat and relax and enjoy the experience. And if I can do some spinning in the gym I will. But it is also OK if I can’t.
Plus DUBAI here I come!