Running Love, Where Are You? 

I think I have fallen out of like with running. I do it and I enjoy it but that’s about it. I have one race coming up and am slightly meh about it and wish I was more excited. So many of my friends are running the running the London Marathon next month and I’m not even jealous of them. I can’t remember the last time I ever felt so apathetic towards running so yesterday I sat down and actually thought about why and the answer is so simple: pain.

My legs are in pain. My knees (left and right), my ankle (left) hurt when I walk, let alone run. I run a 5k and when it’s done they all ache. I bend with my knees and the right feels as if it’s on fire, as if a tendon is about to rip. And I am so, so tired of this. I have rested. I have been to physio, I have stretched. I have rehabed. And still I am in pain.

So what’s the point?

Really, I am asking you all – why should I carry on? I love running but I also love being able to sit cross legged or lift things using my knees and not my back.

Why do I have to chose being my day to day health and being able to run? Why can’t my body be like everyone else’s and just work?

I don’t have answers to any of this and I don’t even have something positive to end on. I don’t have a solution. I need some sort of motivation but have no idea what that could be or how I am gong to get it. I know how lucky I am to run but fuck me, I rather not be in constant pan.

I hate feeling like this.

4 Comments

  1. OliverJames27 13th March 2017 / 10:28 am

    Sorry to hear about this, I know from personal experience how this can feel (I have shoulder and ankle injuries that still plague me randomly). It sounds like you may need more pysio? Or maybe a specialist to look at the way you move to identify what the issue is – or maybe just some more time to heal? Try not to let this put you off: I stopped running completely after my ankle and now I have issues with it; the trick is to know how far you can go then stop and keep this going and it should hopefully build you back up. Whatever he issue is: I hope you can one day enjoy running again.

    • Rosh 17th March 2017 / 11:16 am

      Thank you for your wonderful comment! I am going to start going to physio again to see exactly what can be done and exactly what i need to do. I am keeping everything crossed – for both of us!

  2. LycraLover 14th March 2017 / 9:49 pm

    Try and swim for a while. It will rest your joints and give your whole body a rest from the impact of running. Remember to look after yourself to rest and recover.

    • Rosh 17th March 2017 / 11:16 am

      When I swim, my ankle aches!

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