Saying goodbye to my best friend coffee

Recently I woke up on a Saturday morning and decided that I didn’t particularly want a coffee that day. While at work it’s easy to buy – and I am a coffee buyer rather than a coffee maker – but at home going to a coffee shop is never all that important. So I decided to not bother and didn’t think much of it.

And that’s when the headache started. The mother of ALL ┬áheadaches and worse than anything I had had before. It lasted the whole day. At first I didn’t know what had caused it: I’d slept well and woken refreshed. It was also tormenting me on Sunday – and that when I realised I was going through coffee withdrawal.

And that was it. I stopped drinking caffeine.

It has been painful. And not just headache wise. They lasted until about Tuesday and then it was just the memory of coffee that made me yearn and long and salivate. It’s now been just a little over two months and it has been hard. I missed that fix. But not only that, I missed getting up from my desk and taking a walk to my local coffee shop or canteen and whipping out my card.

I missed the distraction.

I missed the taste.

I missed exploring London looking for my favourite coffees.

Everyone tells me that this will do wonders for my skin but I can’t tell. It just looks the same to me

And then I discovered matcha lattes. Or as some coffee chains refer to them, matcha tea. Suddenly I was addicted again but as this was a drink you couldn’t get in my canteen, I was suddenly spending a lot more money to have a warm drink.

As with traditional coffee I started going from one a day to two…and I knew eventually that would become three. At the same time Lent had started and a friend was telling me what she and her husband had given up. I am not a Christian but she challenged me to give up all the expensive drinks I buy for 40 days.

So far I have succumbed into temptation twice. Both times were early into my self-inflicted ban. Yesterday was a really tough but the money stayed in my account.

Why is it that I love these drinks so much? More importantly, why is it that they are so, so expensive?

I want to get to a place where I can have coffee or a matcha latte without craving it every single day again. I want to enjoy it, not be addicted to it.

Wish me luck!


  1. Oncebyalys 1st April 2017 / 3:53 pm

    Loving your blog finally looking at it on the computer and not just via insta. I love Matcha have one every morning was going to do a post on it too. Do totally understand the ‘missing the looking for coffee’. In my matcha I have ginger tea, 1/4 oil and Raw Honey and blend, YUM!! Hope your having a lovely weekend. Ive just signed up to get your blogs to my inbox xx woo hoo

    • Rosh 1st April 2017 / 4:30 pm

      I have never tried that matcha blend before!! That sounds absolutely delicious. And thank you for subscribing!

  2. Albert Trotter 13th April 2017 / 5:44 pm

    i am addicted to matcha for the last 3 years…its like my best friend in my all times,tensions,depression ,work load etc

    • Rosh 16th April 2017 / 3:46 pm

      And it is so delicious isn’t it? I just find it too expensive when I buy it so have had to take a break

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