Every year I am surprised when December arrives. In fact I am always surprised when Winter arrives. Until the temperature drops and the frost sets in, it always feels like a far flung concept.; something that won’t actually happen. But it has happened! And the start of the new month means I have a new 7 Things List – the last of 2016.
I woke up this morning on the wrong side of the bed. While I was at home it didn’t matter; I was at home. While I was on the train it also didn’t matter; I had a book. As soon as I got into work, it mattered. I wanted to be anywhere else. Everywhere else. I just didn’t want to be at my desk. On Friday I was vomiting rainbows and shitting glitter because the weekend was around the corner and today I am crying tears of despair mixed with woe-is-me. I need to change my Monday state of mind.
If you have a Facebook account you will see that every now and again the company wants you to share your memories. I generally scroll right past in order to read HONY stories but this morning I loved the picture they chose. Three years ago I was touring India and one of the highlights, not just of the trip but of my life, was seeing the Taj Mahal a place I had wanted to see for so long. I look at this picture and love it and the memories surrounding it because even though the trip wasn’t all that great that day was. Since then I have travelled to so many wonderful, new places and as of yesterday have booked two more holidays for 2016 (so far). I love the anticipation, the excitement, and the joy that travelling brings.
Last night I had the chance to attend a mindful session run by The Mindfulness Project. It was an hour long introduction into the basics of meditation and how I can implement it in my daily life. Because unlike what most people think of when asked to meditate (sitting cross legged on a beach in a kaftan) mindfulness is all about paying attention to what is happening here and now. There is no need for special equipment or a specific location (though a beach holiday would be nice), you just need to pay attention to the here and now. And this included your sensations, thoughts and emotions. But what made me actually go home with the belief and knowledge that I can do this, was the fact that the practice is completely non-judgemental. If your thoughts drift when you are meditating it is ok, you just call them back. Don’t chastise yourself, don’t criticise yourself and don’t think of yourself as a failure.